Tuesday, March 16, 2010

The Honeydew - and a nerdy Tolkien reference

Tommy's last post accurately depicted how our lives have changed since the move to Topeka. I'm always amazed, though, at how resilient we are, how we adapt and take things day by day. I was talking to a Texas friend about how it was finally warming up here; in fact, it had reached 45 that day. She agreed that it had been a rough winter and that San Antonio was finally experiencing a nice day too, about 65. It's true that 45 in San Antonio feels so different from 45 in Topeka, but I'd already forgotten.

Tommy explained how our lives had changed, but the biggest change for mine is how it has become smaller. It sounds like a complaint, but it's not. "Butter over too much bread" is how Bilbo describes how he felt in The Fellowship of the Ring, and since Sprout came into our lives, I understand that feeling. Teaching, keeping house, being pregnant, preparing to move - it was all too hectic. I felt like I wasn't doing well at any of it. But as things have settled down for us, and as we are figuring out our place here, I don't mind my world shrinking a little to prepare and focus on the good things.

As of this week my world has shrunk/grown to approximately the size of a honeydew. Sprout becomes more and more of a real person to me every day, strong and with a mind of her own. This is most apparent when I am trying to get to sleep and she is just waking up, rolling around, kicking, and enjoying life. But I don't mind staying awake awhile longer and feeling her; that feeling is much better than sleep. And during the day there are times when I just sit and feel. It's a thrill. Tommy is ready to meet her; he says he wants to be able to spend quality time with her like I can now. A little selfishly, I disagree. I could stay pregnant the way I am feeling now for a bit longer. Thinking of having her in the outside world and not safely held within makes me sad. I'm sure hormones have something to do with it too, but these times with her have been the best part of being pregnant.

Tommy has definitely gotten to experience her strong kicks and rolls. We love watching my belly twist and wobble as she moves, and he felt her most recent bout of hiccups last night. But he is ready to hold her, to have her on his chest as he reads in bed, and I know that will be the next thrill for me, to share her with her dad.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Our New Year

2010 is turning out to be a year of new things.

It seems like almost everything that we had in San Antonio we have a different version of here in Topeka, KS. It's as if switched to version 2.0 and we're wondering how long it's going to take to figure out all the new features and wondering if we're ever going to get used to it.

We've traded...

a cool winter for a cold one
a newer house for an older one
established friends for new and unknown friends
a built up youth group for a youth group in the building stages
far away family to not as far away family
"y'all" for "crick" (creek) and "warsh" (wash)
a great church family for a different great church family
Monday night basketball at 7:00 for Monday night basketball at 7:30

With all the changes there has been a lot of joy. We've already had a few visits from our parents. The congregation at Christ Lutheran helped move and clean our house the 3rd day we were here. I've seen a few birds I haven't seen in Texas. Laura really likes her new doctor and the hospital seems like it will be a good place to have Sprout.

The winter has been a bit wearisome though it does look like it's slowly breaking. At least we've been able to see snow along with the cold. There are some large trees around our neighborhood that I look forward to seeing in the spring and fall.

It's been easier to mourn the absence of so many great people in San Antonio with the congregation here in Topeka accepting us with open arms. It's still been hard to go through those beginning stages of starting relationships with new people and putting names with faces and trying not to compare everything and everyone to what and who we knew in Texas.

We're looking forward to things becoming more normal and for the unknown to become new opportunities. We love and miss all of you we no longer see on a regular basis. Come and visit anytime. You'll have a new, cute, interesting Moll to see soon.